Immaturity

i like to rant, you everyone knows it. everyone who has followed my blog, or has skimmed passed it will know i like to rant. why? because i have a lot to say. why? because i am a magnet for immature people. and it's not like all my friends are immature. i have this one friend. let's call her Alexandra, who is probably the most immature person in the world. we met way back and she was fine. well i guess i was immature back then too. but i grew up. I'm over being that little immature who gets in fights everyday and kiss and make up the next. so Alex and i have stuck it through all these years, and she never grew up. like seriously, she has a mind of a 3 year old. shes rude, she has no manners, she has major paranoia, shes incompetent, and she uses people as a crutch way way too much.
so theres this other let's name her um Monica. she's my best friend. and she did nothing to Alex. and i promise you i am not being biased, because I've been friends with both of them. she did nothing, and yet Alex is doing gestures behind her back, muttering under her breath, and taking behind her back. like honestly come on! we are 18 years old and we are still going through this? 18! we're adults! and yet we will stoop to thats level where we are doing gestures?
so i get mad one day, because everything alex does, i'm the stupid lucky one that is close enough to see, and i hear everything. not wanting to start any , i hold it in. a person can only hold it in for so long correct? so i slip through the cracks, and i'm really starting to break, so she pushed my last fuse and i snap, i literally scream

"SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU STUPID CRAZY BITCH SHUT UP SHUT UP! I'M SO SICK ENTIRE OF YOUR STUPID AND YOUR STUPID REMARKS. SO FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE SHUT THE FUCK UP!"

And when i say scream, i mean scream, like scream until i went hoarse, and she has the guts to scream back

"NO, i never asked you to listen it's not aimed at you"

so me being already fuse shot goes nuts at this comment and says

"WELL GUESS WHOSE THE LUCKY ONE THAT HEARS IT ALL ME AND I'M SICK OF IT, I'M SICK OF YOU. I CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT OF THIS PLACE SO I DON'T HAVE TO SEE YOU EVER AGAIN"

then she had braver guts to say

"you too!"

but she didn't mean it, i did. i meant everything i said. and i still do, and it's been 4 days. and i still mean it. i'm done with this stupid grade three drama. so i ended it. i got the last say and shes still trying to win me back. personally if someone said that stuff to me, i would never approach her.