HAPPY NEW YEAR

I'll write my resolutions tomorrow.happy new year. be happy. live loud. and love, just love everything

Most amazing short film
love has no words

25 things about me

This was very hard for me to write. I am usually a hermit when it comes to talking about myself. I don't like talking about myself, it makes me feel conceited. so It was hard.

25 random things

1. You may think I’m happy, you may see that I’m smiling. Maybe that smile is for real, but my smiles are rare. So if you can make me smile. You deserve a gold star.

2. I have no sense of direction, I get lost all the time, and I’m so clumsy, I either deserve an Oscar, or there should be a drug to treat it.

3. I’m in love with Medicine.

4. I have a box of memoirs that I’ve had since grade 9.

5. Apparently according the psychology test I took in grade 11, I am an insane depressed bipolar introvert. How sad. Oh well. Better than being normal.

6. I love the thrill of doing something dangerous. Now if only my parents will let me free-climb...

7. Crazy is good for me.

8. I love acoustic music. love. Love. LOVE it. But I also like LOUD music.

9. I’m a vegetarian.

10. Autumn is beautiful. I want my wedding to be in autumn.

11. My lifelong goal is to be a superhero.

12. I have an in-depth thought about everything I do.

13. I daydream 24/7 so if I’m in my own little world, it’s not because you’re so boring that I zoned out. ..Okay maybe its cause you’re boring but I have an attention span of a small child. sue me.

14. The sky’s the limit, and next to the greens of nature, you can’t enjoy it without the sky. Whether it’s stars, planets, clouds, sunsets or sunrises; I’ll watch it with you.

15. yellow:):):)

16. I would do anything for my friends and family. No matter how long I’ve known you. If your liver was failing and we were a match; I would give you my liver.

17. I love vintage, antique, Victorian stuff. Never come with me to an antique, or a home decor store, you will have to drag me out.

18. I write.

19. Music, theatre, art and science is what I live for.

20. Paris and England....Europe<3
21. I’m a handful and too hard to handle. Deal with it.

22. I’m a pessimist to the core. I’m negative about everything. I try to lie and think positive. But the lie is written on my face. I found out within the first 18 years of my life that optimism is the biggest let-down in the whole entire universe and being realistic causes too much pain.

23. I’m weird and I’m random. And I like it.

24. My day’s goal is to make you smile :)

25.I love Harry Potter. It is something I'm obsessed about. I like Twilight too. maybe not as much. but it give hope of love, and its something the world needs to know; chivalry is not dead.

26. I love vampires and mystical fantasy creatures and I wish with my whole heart that they were real, and I have the faintest hope that they are. I've loved everything about vampires ever since I've read dracula when I was 15. <3

27. I’m not here to prove myself to you, I’m not going to change the way I am just because you don’t like it. Take it or leave it.

whoops i got carried away. maybe I am concieted

learning

12:00am rolled around the clock, and it was Christmas. The first person I thought was you. Last year, You were the first person I said Merry Christmas too. And It was just another Merry Christmas said your way, but you knew it meant more then that. This year I wanted to tell you Merry Christmas right when 12:00am rolled around, but I knew I couldn't. I had to physically force myself not to tell you Merry Christmas. I'm learning slowly. and that makes me happy.

Merry Christmas everyone. I love you all.
:)

christmas

i love christmas

back to the old life

I need people to stop lurking, and being nosy about people that they are not friends with anymore. because it's just plain ANNOYING. you guys are not friends anymore. you never were to begin with, so STOP WITH THE QUESTIONS!!! just because I am friends with you, I am not going to be your own personal spy. I am no longer in the middle of this. Don't you dare think that i still don't have a backbone. well guess what. I have a tiny tiny one, but It is mighty as hell, and I am not going to tell you shit all for all that I care. Stay out of each others lives, stay out of each others business. Stop asking me questions because I don't know if you are sick of it, but I sure am. I'm happy to see you both. Don't make me choose. because if you make me choose, I won't choose any of you. grow up. get a life. you're 18 now, so start acting like it

Oh by the way

I'm done with you. I did everything in my own will to be there for you. I've been there for you since day one. I've cared for you, pleaded for you, cried for you, loved you. And I get nothing in return. I;m glad we are still friends. but I can't get over the fact that you can trust me when You're with me, but now that its over I'm a complete stranger. It like the BEST thank you ever. Thank you so so so much. But do you konw what bothers me the most? Every single fibre in my body is screaming for me to let you go. Because you are not good enough for me. You and I don't have that spark that we were suppose to have. The lightbulb burnt out, and left us in the dark. And I know it. But why is it that every time I think of you, my heart jumps. Every fibre is screaming in unison except for that little spot in my heart, that is still loving you. I need to take you, and put you in a little box, and just put you away.

So you would think

so you would think being an insane person was bad enough. Actually really, it's not all that bad. Like you look things differently, you have a shorter fuse, you have crazy little outbursts of random energy, but it beats being normal right? Anyway back to my point. All my life I wanted to be in medicine. Like literally. All. My. Life. Music, Theatre, and Science is what I live for. My point. I'm already insane, I'm pessmistic to the very core, then I get thrown a Health Book to am told to read it for class. So I read it like a good little girl I am, because I'm interested and all that jazz. But now I have developed paranoia. Joy. 

so let`s live here in the future my love

run.

There are days like these where I want to run. Just run. Not knowing where I’m going to take myself, and not look back. Run until my lungs and my heart are pounding with protest, but still push on. Run where it is so cold that the air you breathe in burns your throat raw. But I still run. Run til I shake off everything. Every happy feeling, every angry feeling, every ounce of emotion in my entire soul until the only thing I’m thinking about is running. I want to feel free.

i think lady gaga is god.

a little comment to you,

you make me smile