wedding

Because I'm a geeek, and I'm just like every girl out there I planned out my wedding already
everything is going to be perfect. and It is going to be another addition to the best days of my life.
It could be anywheere as long as it has the following:
- the perfect white dress
- something blue
- yellow bridesmaid dresses
- either in the fall or spring ( fall more)
- orchids and a bunch  of flowers ( like I'm talking ALOT of flowers)
- yellow Belle reception dress
- and of course the man I'm marrying duh
<3 ♥

you're not sorry

All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around
I’ve been giving out chances everytime and all you do is let me down
And its taking me this long but baby I figured you out
And you think it will be fine again but not this time around

You don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no more, no more, no

Lookin’ so
I might believe you if I didn’t know
Could’a loved you all my life
If you hadn’t left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I’m tired of being last to know
And now you’re asking me to listen
Cuz its worked each time before

You had me crying for you honey
And it never would’ve gone away no
You use to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There’s nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before

<3

I'm fearless

creepers

Today, I had lunch with the ladies! Went to kings, and had an amazing time. We pretended that it was Meghan's Birthday and we got a hat, and picture, and everything. It was awesome. Then we went to the library to "study" and we were just starting to study, when out of nowhere, an old man comes and takes off his hat, and starts talking to us and he was saying all these things about Israel, and such and such. And he called Katy Tom Sawyer, and Meghan Huckleberry Finn. We were all laughing, and he was saying how I was a Japanese fighter jet, and it started to get annoying because he kept trying to talk to us. Then the librarian came over and was like "is this man bothering you? you know you have full authority to say anything that is appropriate to him" then she went to the old man and was like " you are NOT allowed to talk to these girls while their trying to study. They think you are a dirty old man, and I know you are not but you talking to them is making you look like a dirty old man."

it was so funny.

stop

I've gotta stop posting these ridiculous sad blogs! I swear world, that I am not a sad person. I'm actually a happy person, that happens to have sad things done to. But I swear minus the minor (or major) sad parts, I am truly a happy person. Maybe not the happiest go-lucky person in the world, but I am happy. I laugh a whole lot. Its just that everyone is happy. And there isn't a reason to be. The only reason all you read are sad depressing blogs, is because its bothering me, and I need to share it with someone.And that someone is you. Thank you for putting up with my sad depressing blogs. Hey, all you have to do is picture me laughing, and you'll be fine
--love

paitience

I came to an epiphany today. Just randomly, I was thinking, and it just hit me; like a ton of bricks, and I was literally like "Oh. My. Goodness. Why didn't I have this epiphany before?" Like maybe a 11 months ago, when I was trying to force myself into Justin's life. My epiphany is to be patient. Yes I said that I am done with chasing, but the key is to be patient. Because if you wait patiently, sure enough, it will come bounding when you least expect it.  It's hard, but its a new thing I'm trying. Hope it works!

thankful for greys

and it dawns on me

that you know you are lonely, when it is 2:49 am
and you are just sitting here blogging.
nothing to do
     noone to talk to
           no one to love you
                  no one to laugh with
                          no one to cry with
                                no one to watch a movie with
                                       no one to lie here with

                                                                                                       no one.

 just you

all alone

with a laptop

blogging

                                       wow.

Happy Thanksgiving!

P.S. Go to Tim Hortons, and ask for a Medium Hot Chocolate with a single Green Tea teabag;  just do it. Don't ask questions, just go. :)

build up

I should have never waited until the last minute. I could've had a semi nice weekend. But no. I'm going to be spending my thanksgiving weekend doing assignments, readings 3 chapters in all of my courses and taking notes, rewriting all my notes which I promised myself that I was going to do in September and it is now October. On top of that, I have 2 amazing midterms this coming week that I have to study for. Doesn't that sound like an amazing weekend? Maybe its a good thing my brother didn't come home this weekend. I wouldn't be able to do anything. Ugh someone save me!

I miss you.

i love her

chase

I'm sick of chasing. Because chasing leaves you nothing but broken. For once in my life, I want to feel special, I want to feel worth while, I want to be chased. I want to be the one you have to fight for, to go the limits to make me smile. I want you to be the one that does everything, just to show how grateful you are to have me. I want you to fight for me. To run after me when I leave. So I'm done. If you want me, then you better start now. Run to me. Stop me. Let me run away. And chase after me.

pressure

The pressure is on. Medical Schools around Ontario are cutting their numbers for the admissions for 2010. Meaning that its going to be harder, and tougher to get in.
The pressure is on; and do you know what I have to say to pressure?

I say bring it.