how to love a pessimist

There are many things to a pessimist. For one thing, they are probably the saddest, angriest people you will ever meet in your life. They will always be a downer, and there remarks will either lead to an argument or an awkward silence. But they can’t help it, so instead of trying to turn them, live with it.

Befriend them, no matter how much your worlds collide.

Tell them everything is going to be okay no matter what the negative thoughts brewing in their mind is saying.

Make them shake with laughter. Everyone loves to laugh; even pessimists.

Write them the happiest song, in the saddest tune.

Have little arguments, which will end ambiguously.

Hold them when they cry, even if they try to force you away. Hold them silently and let them blame themselves. Hold them even if they blame you.

Tell them that no matter what happens in life, you will always be there no matter how many walls they put up, because you will stand firm wishing them away.

Tell them at the end of the day, no matter what they say, no matter what kind of downer remark they say, no matter how much you argue, no matter how much they hate the world that it is okay to, because they can’t help it

; Just like you can’t help falling in love with them.

time

it's time to forget all the grudges you held
it's time to love unconditionally
its time to laugh at all the meaningless things
it's time to take it by the reins and pull back when you've gone too far
it's time to cry joyfully, and laugh in sorrow
it's time to not be confused and know whats what.
it's time to unclench that hand you've been holding for support
it's time to allow the walls to fall, and face the world courageously
it's time to learn how to bit back your tongue
it's time to learn that fighting fire with fire creates nothing but fire.
its time to bring the dreams you've been dreaming and make it reality
it's time to say what's on your mind.
it's time to leave all your secrets behind
it's time to be no one but yourself
it's time to not run away from your fears but run towards them

its time to live without any regrets

blank

i sit here and i stare at the blank page
hoping that if i stare at it long enough, i would know what to write
my thoughts come up with nothing.

write yourself.
fill these lines with cursive writing, with haunting pictures, beautiful memories
anything, say anything, draw anything
any little hint on the way i feel.
draw a picture
write a word.
anything.
but it does nothing.
it stays blank, a neatly blue ruled sheet of paper.

but i still sit here, and stare at the blank page
hoping that if i stare at it long enough, it would show my emotions.
and it finally does.
i feel nothing. nothing at all.

lost

and i could have stayed lost in your eyes
forever.

but i was forced to be found

you looked away.

good old days

it's days like these where your doing nothing at all, when you start to think about the "good old days". then your start to miss those "good old days" then you start to think how much you would give up just to be back there, and stay there forever. but you can't. its nothing more then a fading memory. nothing more then something you love so much. and its gone.

been there done that; gone.

it's the days like these when your heart aches so bad, you just want to rip it out, because it hurts so much. a heart is a heart. its nothing more then a organ that pumps blood to your body. so why is it when you miss someone immensely, it starts to hurt? i can feel it, and it hurts.

ba bump ba bump

it's the days like these where your missing the "good old days" so much you can't do nothing but stay put and be. and just think. nothing you can do. nothing i can do..

been there done that. i want to go back.

(i miss camp:(:(:( )

and the truth is told

to me, true love is the sweetest thing in life. That's why we're all either in love or looking for love. Sometimes you have to work for it - especially when life gets in the way - but i believe true, deep love is always worth fighting for.

i'll take it

i know my place in your world for now.
and it is a friend.

don't worry about a thing.
i will be the most faithful friend you ever laid eyes on

it's a bittersweet ending

i didn't know it was going to feel this way. i honestly thought that it would be much happier. Just a few days ago, we were so happy to leave, because we were finally done. But now, once we were put in the situation; honestly, i don't know how to feel, i still don't know how to feel.

there i felt at home, every single morning i would go to the same place and see the same people i shared amazing memories with. i knew everyone, i was close with half the teachers.

and now i'm done. i will never ever have that opportunity to be in a place where i know 95% of the people there, and i must say, it is kind og frightening.

i had no idea, how much a teacher could affect me. But i thinking saying goodbye to him with a straight pokerface was impossible.

i had no idea that no matter how secure i am on the fact i will see my 6 best friends after high school, i will never be in the same class as them...ever again. my best friend won't even be in the same province as me!

its very bittersweet, and it is very hard to soak in the fact, that its over, and its time to move on. I don't know whether to jump for joy, or cry for sadness.

yes, it is very bittersweet

let it be?

i understand where you're coming from. you hate it here, and i do too, and expressing the feeling of hate is okay. but when you go and say something like, i never want to see anyone after highschool. i'm not going to talk to anyone when im done, i'm just going to disappear.

thank you. thank you so much for having so much care for me when you say that.

i feel the same. i can't stand it here, i want out. but i still want to see you, and all of my best friends. and here you are bashing me in front of my very face. i've done nothing to you. but i promise you, if you really dont put an effort in seeing me next year, then its going to be painful for me to let you go. because i'm going to go 100 percent against what my heart feels.

ha

i don't know why i keep telling myself that its all going to work out in the end. I'm and such a failure i don't deserve to call myself a stupid depressed pessimist. like i am a disgrace. i don't know why i have the will to stir up all of this hope.

please

please erase the memories of being heartbroken.
take away the hurt i feel.
take away everything but the friendship and care we have for each other
for i would defend it with my life.