slipping away.

i don't believe in the concept of love anymore. It's slipping away like soap from my very fingertips, and I'm trying so hard to hang on it with a firm grasp; but it's not working. I don't understand it anymore. I thought I knew it, thought I had it down pat, but now, it's like its the first time I've heard of it. I don't know what it is, how it feels, what it does to your heart, everything. I have forgotten everything, and frankly I hate being in the dark. I hate not knowing. As a natural human being, we don\t like going into things without knowing at least something about it, and that's me. I am so in the dark, that I am afraid to step a foot anywhere near the area of love. SOS. I knew I was going to lose it, but really this soon? maybe I;m delusional. Maybe I've turned psychotic.